Rant V - The Drama Strikes Back
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Good, another person who won't kowtow to Big Green.Oh no, I do call them the small, medium, large as well. I don't get pissy at them but I refuse to play there stupid game of making me say words I don't want to.
Manbaw incoming but you know what? I'm really starting to understand why so many in my chosen profession are alcoholics. These last night shift stints have been the toughest of my career. It's just shitty, shitty depressing situation after shitty, shitty depressing situation. Having to literally put body parts into a body bag after a massive drunk driving collision to being called into a domestic disturbance where there were babies actually just about swimming in their own feces they were so neglected. The worst was definitely the man who died in an alcohol laden mess in his house, shit and blood everywhere as his body had literally begun to reject his organs. He was dead kneeling over his bed like in a prayer position with his pants down with his asshole prolapsed with half his intestines hanging out. Apparently this is a common death for alcoholics.
I am definitely not feeling my best. I have 2 more over the next couple of days. It's really starting to weigh on me.
I am definitely not feeling my best. I have 2 more over the next couple of days. It's really starting to weigh on me.
Shit. I don't know what else to say but 'shit.'
Frankie... I really don't know what to say... That's some serious shit you had to live through...
Don't only cope with it by releasing your feelings/what you had to go through here in this forum. Share - in a serious AND in a joking way - with your collegues.
And don't be afraid to visit a shrink. It's important that you can work all those things out.
Don't play the tough guy and pretend that it isn't getting to you - cause it will, someday.
PM me if you want to talk more about it...
Don't only cope with it by releasing your feelings/what you had to go through here in this forum. Share - in a serious AND in a joking way - with your collegues.
And don't be afraid to visit a shrink. It's important that you can work all those things out.
Don't play the tough guy and pretend that it isn't getting to you - cause it will, someday.
PM me if you want to talk more about it...
Frankie... wow.
Thats not a manbaw, thats just a terrible thing to have to deal with.
Let me say this: THANK YOU. Thank you for doing your job. I'm sure those people you are dealing with won't say it, but we need strong people like you to do that tough job.
Let me echo Andi, if you need help get it, thats some really tough stuff to deal with and I can't even imagine what you have to go through.
Thats not a manbaw, thats just a terrible thing to have to deal with.
Let me say this: THANK YOU. Thank you for doing your job. I'm sure those people you are dealing with won't say it, but we need strong people like you to do that tough job.
Let me echo Andi, if you need help get it, thats some really tough stuff to deal with and I can't even imagine what you have to go through.
Frankie, I've asked you this before, you either skipped or ignored my inquiry; what community are you stationed at?
Minor annoyance, but with the way my work has been going it is kinda one more for the pile.
I have been working 4 10-hr shifts a weeks for years now. For a long time, I had nothing to do on the weekends. I eventually picked up a movie night with friends and such and it was fun. Recently, schedule changes had taken the movie night and the friend's availability away. I was bummed about that at first. Eventually, though, I met a girl who lives in charlotte and so my weekend schedule is perfect. I have Fri, Sat., & Sun. off, so I drive up Fri afternoon, visit all weekend and get back late sunday.
I have mentioned this previously, I went up there last weekend for the first time and everything was great.
I get back to work today and there is an email waiting for me saying that they are switching me to a normal 5-day week and also putting me on saturday rotation. This starts on the 21st.
Why is it that whenever I start doing something outside of work that I enjoy, work somehow changes and blocks it? It almost seems like it's malicious.
I'm going to have to go talk to my bosses and see what they can do.
I have been working 4 10-hr shifts a weeks for years now. For a long time, I had nothing to do on the weekends. I eventually picked up a movie night with friends and such and it was fun. Recently, schedule changes had taken the movie night and the friend's availability away. I was bummed about that at first. Eventually, though, I met a girl who lives in charlotte and so my weekend schedule is perfect. I have Fri, Sat., & Sun. off, so I drive up Fri afternoon, visit all weekend and get back late sunday.
I have mentioned this previously, I went up there last weekend for the first time and everything was great.
I get back to work today and there is an email waiting for me saying that they are switching me to a normal 5-day week and also putting me on saturday rotation. This starts on the 21st.
Why is it that whenever I start doing something outside of work that I enjoy, work somehow changes and blocks it? It almost seems like it's malicious.
I'm going to have to go talk to my bosses and see what they can do.
Frankie, glad you have a place to unload. Sometimes you just need to!
Good luck, GS. That really stinks. If you work hard you should at least play hard.
Been three-ish weeks since spraining/breaking my radius from landing on my elbow in the kitchen, and I still can't put all my weight on it. This stinks in certain, um, adult situations...
...and when I reach out to grab something with my left arm, I forget about the injury sometimes.
Good luck, GS. That really stinks. If you work hard you should at least play hard.
Been three-ish weeks since spraining/breaking my radius from landing on my elbow in the kitchen, and I still can't put all my weight on it. This stinks in certain, um, adult situations...
...and when I reach out to grab something with my left arm, I forget about the injury sometimes.
If I hear ONE MORE DAMN THING about those annoying twits from that lovely show "We had a busload of kids then whored them out for tv money" I'm going to puke.
Or ram my car into a wall just to put me out of my misery.
What the hell is wrong with people!?!?
THESE ARE NOT GOOD PEOPLE.
THEY ARE ACTIVELY DESTROYING THEIR KIDS LIVES ON LIVE TELEVISION.
And now, to explain my disgust, here's Conrad Twitty... er, TOOL:
Or ram my car into a wall just to put me out of my misery.
What the hell is wrong with people!?!?
THESE ARE NOT GOOD PEOPLE.
THEY ARE ACTIVELY DESTROYING THEIR KIDS LIVES ON LIVE TELEVISION.
And now, to explain my disgust, here's Conrad Twitty... er, TOOL:
Ok, all this? Nevermind.
Just got an email from the girl that was essentially a dear john letter. She even wants to be friends.
Well, whoop-de-fuckin-do.
I know this is only jinxing myself, but today has really sucked and can't possibly get any worse.
damn...I really embarrassed myself in front of my new roommate. It's not that horrible, but I certainly can't talk to him tonight out of embarrassment. The problem is though that there is something I need to talk to him about, but it's small and not a big deal either so if I put it off I'll probably forget about it.
Lost somebody at the hospital I do volunteer work at due to swine flue. Black Cat crossed my path on the way to and from working there... and now I have a cough. God damn it, I'm getting the swine flu!
I'm trying really hard to find something to look forward to between now and going home for Christmas in December.
I hope something comes up, because it's looking really bleak and that's incredibly depressing.
I hope something comes up, because it's looking really bleak and that's incredibly depressing.
I'm stuck in such a rut, I could constantly hit myself in the face - but the problem is, I am even too lazy to do that...
For months now, or even longer, over a year, I cannot overcome my lazyness... I cannot do what I really wish to do, because I am too gorram awful lazy to get a grip on myself...
It's like being stuck in mud... It would take a great effort to get out, but as this would be too straining for myself, I just keep resting and sticking in the mud...
What I would need would be a swift kick in the ass - but I'm not sure whether that would really wake me up from my lethargy...
Sad thing is (or the good thing is...), I cannot "blame" anybody than myself for my current state of being. I technically KNOW what I have to do... But because that seems to be so ardous, I keep finding excuses to carry on with my life as a sloth...
Yeah, now that WAS a manbaww, wasn't it?
For months now, or even longer, over a year, I cannot overcome my lazyness... I cannot do what I really wish to do, because I am too gorram awful lazy to get a grip on myself...
It's like being stuck in mud... It would take a great effort to get out, but as this would be too straining for myself, I just keep resting and sticking in the mud...
What I would need would be a swift kick in the ass - but I'm not sure whether that would really wake me up from my lethargy...
Sad thing is (or the good thing is...), I cannot "blame" anybody than myself for my current state of being. I technically KNOW what I have to do... But because that seems to be so ardous, I keep finding excuses to carry on with my life as a sloth...
Yeah, now that WAS a manbaww, wasn't it?
*long, warm hug*
*long, warm hug*[/QUOTE]
As someone who was on anti-depressants for almost ten years, my only piece of advice is to not rely heavily on the meds. Yes, they will help you... but if your hoping they will fix you, then your taking them for the wrong reason. All they can do is help you make things better for yourself.
As Ashburner mentioned, those pills aren't the solution to your "problem", but only a help to get out of it. I don't want to get to personal here, but have you tried psychotherapy to get to the reasons of why you feel so depressed?
Also, I could recomend you some not-so-standard-medicine approaches, depending on your own personal character.
Ever tried meditation? It itself isn't a solution to your "problems" either, but also some kind of help to get through to yourself and to find a way of how to approach what's bugging you.
I cannot give more advice, because - obviously - I don't know you besides from your postings here in halforum and the occasional status-alert in facebook.
I wish you all the best, and be assured: You are not alone - if that helps...
*hug*
Vyta: yay!
Ash: I know
Andi: thing with meditation/yoga/mindfulness is, you're supposed to be able to at least somewhat relax yourself. I tried some relaxation exercises a while ago..."Now, bunch up your fist. Really tighten all muscles in your hand....Annndd...relax. Ehm, relax. Loosen those muscles! Oh, that's as loose as they get. Hmm. You might be a bit too tense for this to work." o__O
But yeah, I'm trying to get out of my slump, but I just spend a weekend with three beautiful, intelligent, single, funny, girls, good friends of mine, in sunny northern France, being waited on hand and foot by my brother and sister-in-law-to-be, smooth jazz in the background, getting massages (and giving massages) to all three, playing games, going walking, talking, having generally the best possible times you could honestly imagine without resorting to kinky foursomes
-P), they all commented they felt oh so great afterwards, completely recharged and rested and all that, and I was still a nervous wreck and tense from here to China and back - at the end of one of the supposedly most relaxing weekends you can imagine, my heartrate at rest was 96 and my bp was 16/13.5. It's not that I'm so incredibly depressed, per sé (well, a bit), but that I just plain can't manage to relax and calm down these days.
My body aches all over, I can't sleep, my joints are cracking in any direction, all the time, I have nervous ticks all over the place, and so on. If the medication helps me calm down and at least helps with the physical symptoms of my stressed-out-ness, it'd be a good start. They won't magically make me feel better, but hopefully I'll manage to have some bloody fun once I calm down.
Ash: I know
Andi: thing with meditation/yoga/mindfulness is, you're supposed to be able to at least somewhat relax yourself. I tried some relaxation exercises a while ago..."Now, bunch up your fist. Really tighten all muscles in your hand....Annndd...relax. Ehm, relax. Loosen those muscles! Oh, that's as loose as they get. Hmm. You might be a bit too tense for this to work." o__O
But yeah, I'm trying to get out of my slump, but I just spend a weekend with three beautiful, intelligent, single, funny, girls, good friends of mine, in sunny northern France, being waited on hand and foot by my brother and sister-in-law-to-be, smooth jazz in the background, getting massages (and giving massages) to all three, playing games, going walking, talking, having generally the best possible times you could honestly imagine without resorting to kinky foursomes
-P), they all commented they felt oh so great afterwards, completely recharged and rested and all that, and I was still a nervous wreck and tense from here to China and back - at the end of one of the supposedly most relaxing weekends you can imagine, my heartrate at rest was 96 and my bp was 16/13.5. It's not that I'm so incredibly depressed, per sé (well, a bit), but that I just plain can't manage to relax and calm down these days.My body aches all over, I can't sleep, my joints are cracking in any direction, all the time, I have nervous ticks all over the place, and so on. If the medication helps me calm down and at least helps with the physical symptoms of my stressed-out-ness, it'd be a good start. They won't magically make me feel better, but hopefully I'll manage to have some bloody fun once I calm down.
Hey, just got back home yesterday evening and found out we won't have hot water for the whole week... this shit should be announced fucking weeks before you asshats...
EDIT: Oh, and i don't get to go to Inglorious Basterds tonight coz the theatre only had seat in the 2 front rows left (it's 2 for 1 night)... today kinda sucked...
EDIT: Oh, and i don't get to go to Inglorious Basterds tonight coz the theatre only had seat in the 2 front rows left (it's 2 for 1 night)... today kinda sucked...
he has no hot water at home and hopes you'll let him have a bath at your place?!
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