@Dave: damn, that sucks :-(
@Jake: yeah, I never heard of those either
@Cajun: *cuddles*, Zen's right way too often in this sort of stuff.
@AshBurner: what Tin said...and also good luck on finding a (few) friend(s) who make you feel good about yourself and don't get you down.
Incoming manbaww/get-over-it-you-idiot thing, feel free to skip:
So it's been almost a year since me and the ex went our seperate ways, and I was sort-of getting over it. Not really all's well in Bubbleland, but, you know, not continuously feeling bad and insecure about it.
So, she came by here a while ago, since I have a shower, and internet, and food, all of these little things she doesn't have at her place, which she wanted to use. Fair enough. She ended up staying for 3 days, sleeping in my bed, watching 9 movies together (Die Hard trilogy, PotC trilogy, Narnia,...), and talking about our respective problems in life and all that. Some pretty messed up things about her which I'll skip over because, you know, I've decided to put a bit less personal information of her on the net, but anyway, yeah.
Now, of course, I'm waaayyy back to the hurting about it, feeling crappy, hurting myself, blahblahlbah phase. I honestly don't love her and wouldn't want her back in my life, but why in the hells do I open myself up like this for the pain she causes me? I shouldn't care what she does anymore, who she does it with, when, or whatever! Gah! Why am I back to feeling jealous and insecure and inadequate?
/manbaww
Also: my boss is trying to save money by putting us alone in day time, starting tomorrow. That means there'll be one dispatcher for 12 hours i nthe day, and three at night. I admit the day is calmer than the night, but really, it's moronic. We're dealing with lives and safety concerns here, I'm still flippin' allowed to take a bathroom break or go eat something, right? This just can't work properly! GAH!