Like I said, I know those thoughts are irrational. This knowledge doesn't help as much as I'd like it to.Part of the problem with depression is the disease convincing you that you shouldn't HAVE to do anything about it. I'm not telling you what to do, but seeing a doctor is not an admission of weakness or defeat. If your appendix was hurting or you broke a bone, going to a doctor would be a smart thing to do and I'll bet you wouldn't hesitate. Depression is nothing more than your brain and chemical system hurting. While it's not as exact a science as setting a broken bone, there are doctors who are pretty damned good at helping.
Just my $.02.
Either way, we're here to lend an ear or unwanted advice.
You know, there's something I've come to call emotional inertia, though I honestly don't know if I thought of that title myself or heard it elsewhere and adopted it. But it very accurately describes how I feel. Starting things is hard, and since I too have come up with healthy/unhealthy ways to cope, the path of least resistance is to do nothing. I know this isn't a viable long term strategy, but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯It's hard. I suspect I should be seeing someone as well, but I'm not in any hurry to deal with it. I'm sure you've developed a number of coping mechanisms like me and many others - some healthy, some unhealthy - and we all just kind of stumble through life, one foot in front of the other on bad days/weeks/months.
Please do use this place to vent, discuss, etc. It's one of the more healthy coping strategies, and while we're a rascally bunch we respect and care for each other, so this may be a better place to do it than other options you might have.
I hope today goes well for you!
Do you have any plans for the new year?
Oh, the medication always works. Whether it has the desired outcome or whether it brings something else to the fore is another matter.Partially because I'm afraid the medication wouldn't work
Tis true. I've only been on meds twice for depression, and both times the side effects were not worth it. And yeah, I didn't feel sad but I also didn't feel anything else either.Oh, the medication always works. Whether it has the desired outcome or whether it brings something else to the fore is another matter.
--Patrick