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Goddamnit, I've never cared about it as much as I have in these past 3-4 years. 40 pounds is pretty good. But I still have this gross stomach that's a constant reminder of the stupid years in the previous blog. And I just want it fucking gone. When I didn't care as much it wasn't a big deal, but I'm getting so impatient. I'm sick of looking like some kind of disgusting potato with a farmer's tan. Jesus. I'm doing everything right. Lots of activity, healthy diet, moderate portions, and lots ...

I wish I hadn't been such a bum for two years. Then I could already be teaching... back home or in a new state having an adventure.

I learned a lot in Culinary School, but it's not what I want to do with my life. It was fun, but that's it. I could have accomplished so much more in the field I care about. But no, I had to be an idiot. Seems like everyone has 1-3 years of their life at least where they just do something dumb or are completely selfish. I was selfish. I was an ...

With all the breakup talk on the boards, I'm loathe to post anything about this on the actual forum. But today's very special. I've been with Jake for 7 years now. That ALSO means I've been out of high school for 7 years. Wow.

Our present to each other? This summer we're starting a new game. Every couple of weeks we each have to come up with something new we want the other to try. Could be food, a board game, a sport, a video game, a book, a movie... you get the idea. We ...

When I'm away from home and the fella and I have to talk on AIM, I realize how little of our relationship has been spent talking. That's not suggestive, or anything. And we definitely have lots of interesting conversations. But we're both so content with silence at this point that we don't really know what to do to keep up when I'm away. Something new and interesting doesn't always happen every day, so most of the time, "same old same old" is all we can really say about our week. ...

That's the good news! I'm so happy.

Now the strange news: I've been having sort of an off day, but I didn't think that I was letting on at all. So at the end of class my professor stops me at the door. "You're not quite yourself today... is everything alright?" It caught me completely off-guard--so much so that I started sniffling and was about to cry.... embarrassing. But what the hell? I didn't think it was even that bad a day, but then when someone brought it ...